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The stud: a new reflection





Sometimes in year twenty thousand and eight I wrote about an idea which was proliferating around as a ethic. what happened since i wrote about the stud is that i have had to go through a relationship which I was used as a stud. very funny but it did happened. In two thousand and nine, i met with my baby mother in a community church in southampton. At first, i did not take into her even though she appeared moderately attractive but i had my mind on somebody else then. Within the circumstance we met, we had to talk and honestly I sense a connection between us. The connection was just that we were able to talk freely with each other of which I had not been able to do with anybody in a long time. However, i had my mind on somebody else then so I completely ignore whatever the connection was on that day.


It happened that some days later i had the honor to meet with the same woman again. It was on the christmas eve of year two thousand and nine. She came to the Christmas carol with her four young boys of which the oldest is just going to fifteen with the youngest six. She introduced me to her family, by which i mean her young boys. At the time she makes a joke of the fact that she would love to have a baby girl, if not but one. it was a joke right; but after the christmas carol she invited me over to her place by giving me her telephine number. I said i would call but did not and after three days she sent somebody to me. I promised that i would call but yet i did not.


I think she must have got tired of waiting because two days after christmas she showed up but this time without her boys. She demanded I should come to her place for dinner with her friend whom she had sent after me.


That night I left with her and her friend to her place without knowing that would be the last time I would be a free man again. On that night she demanded that I should stay with her, said her boys is with their father. four boys i was introduced to but I get to know there was another fifth stuck with somebody whom she had not seen since the boy was three or four. And, if you were thinking, they all belonged to different men. Three junior ones belonged to one man and there age is nine, eight and six while the two older ones belonged to two other men. Okay, the point now is that she is alone by herself and would like to start with another man. I am still young and deserve a life. I do not suppose anybody could denial her that right.


On this night she said i could stay with her and live with her if I want to and because of me threw out her friend because she was against it. Honestly, i had to say I had not known any sincerity like hers. We had sex on the same night and during the sex she cried that she felt pregnant and asked me if I would like to have a baby. That was sincere and any previouse thought of running away the next morning varnishe from my mind. So I asked her if she was sure this is what she want. she said yes. Do I have any child she asked me. i said there is none which i know of and i would like to have a child at any day from now. which honestly speaking have cross my mind a few months before december. After i had admit this truth to her she said that we should do it. I felt reluctant and wich i could say no to her but on second thought this is what i wanted as well but she just was not the type of girl I would have settle for to have a child by. First was the large family of broken marriages or engagement and young children growing up within this damaged relationships. Then there was the feeling that I my ready to cope with such a large family responsibility. But by the morning after a night of bad sex I still could not say goodbye. What is wrong with me? Is it just about having somebody to love and care for you or is it just about having a child and starting a family. I guessed i must agreed that any family is better than no family. But i had to spent the next six months to ponder on these issues but at the end i think my curiousity must have got the better part of me and a sincere attitude to do something for this generaous and caring woman. Generouse, she was, caring she was but that was not everything she was really sick. She explained to me that she was just recovering from addiction to alcohol. And she would like to gain custody of all her children back ones she is now clean. She was honest about this as well but she wants another baby. She loves babies she said but hates them when they start growing up. Three months down the road I am still wondering what I was still waiting around for. In three months twice I made up my mind to leave her and her life. I walked out of the door and hoped i would not have to return but there I found myself back ones she called me and asked me to come back to her. She loves me she said and would I just walk into their lives and walk out like that even with the children whom I had got to know. We were still on this issue when she was tested pregnant in the third month of our relationship. Then I made up my mind to see this one through while I know it is nothing that would last even though she claimed that she wanted it to last forever. She is going to have the baby she wanted and so was I even though i had my reserves of the malicious selfish thing I am doing. I could not call it a good relationship because I do not enjoy sex with her on any occassion. She was not a good sex partner and not very much a bed playmate i would have like to get stuck up with for a life time.
Her real color soon start to show up when she got pregnant and every truth was spilling out of her tongue like a dry honey comb. But then it was all explained to the pregnancy Homone. first was when she told me that she only wanted me for the child. and then, she told me the very question i asked after the last time I wrote the stud. She said that the man determines the sex of a baby but she would understand it if it turns out to be a boy because every man always want a boy as his first child.
I know I had to resolve this matter before the baby come along. And that was what sort of life am I ready to give to child I am bringing into a broken home. I still could not answer the question and at the end my curiousity got the best of me. I really wanted to see what my own child would look like. I want to know what would come out of my own nature. So I decided to go along with the pregnancy when she asked me that should we leave it or abort it.

Throughout the pregnancy period it was a verbal war and i could not count the number of insult that mount up unto me. finally she said i could go if i wanted to go that she would understand it and she would be able to bring up the child by her self. I think that was when the truth actually hit me. She had barraged me with honesty about wanting to stay with me forever which i was still thinking about how it could be posible. And how she wanted to keep all her family together and have a man over her. But it was all a complete manipulation and emotional blackmail. She never had the intention of getting married to a man and the reason i know is that all her previous were what i call a special selection by her. I recorgnise that she was picking the same type of men every time and i am sure it was something in her up bringing. And, of course not all of us could sometimes elude the cards fate dealt unto us.

Before the child was born i took a part time job to be able to buy the baby stuffs because she was not going to buy anything until she gets paid by the social welfare. Since she had forbid me from going out withou her or spending too much time on my writing. She calls it a dead end career. We had previously arranged that i can go out twice in a week for five to six hours alone and she knows where i am going. But before i had time to iron out her problems she had started accusing me of cheating and calling girls. It grew to a stage that i know that it is never going to be me and her forever. It was then I started thinking of having a second girlfriend on the side because i do not want to be disappointed by her promises and lies. She said she had experience cheating from men and knows all the tricks. But she got me wrong because i did not start thinking of having somebody else until i was being accused. I think she played the game right there because she could have work it out that i hardly leave the house even for a week at times. But I think she was doing it to push me away which of-course i try to tell her.

It was too late to stop anything now because she gave birth to a baby boy. I realise afterward that there is a big decision to make. However, i was willing to hold on until my boy is able to know one thing or two about me. She was finally able to get her three little boys back from their father not recently. That is the three little ones which drove her to the braking point. They spin her around like nothing else but it was all good it was part of being a mother. The final draw was drawn not long ago when she phoned the police to come and get me out of the house right in front of her boys and my baby boy.

I had to write this in a hurry because it was not until i open my blog page and read the stud again that i was surprised what i had just been through.


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Phenomenal (Unedited)

Disturbia

Phenomenal, would they ever end? This question is worth considering if you had been living within the city of Southampton for the past five years. I have spent just about the same in the city, since Feb.,'03 when I start to notice a great strong constellation of spiritual bodies ribaldly roving around the city. By July, in the heat of the summer sun, I was seeing them in larger numbers lined up against the outside walls of every city buildings and on both sides of the roads within the city. Something strange and great was going on I said to myself. And, by August, a tremendous large congregation of these spirit bodies (Double Bodies or Etheric double, Doppelganga) were holding confrence around the Kingsland and st. Mary's Church area. There, they use for a congested conffession cionfrence ground; I have seen spiritual bodies before but never before in these large numbers, it was like a siege.

Spirit bodies do not necessaraily move about in large strong throng in a place like that unnecessarily. It comes up that they had to have a purpose and a mission; they were most often aroused by a strong and potent human action. But the need for the conffession ground confrence seriously disturbed me; it seems like they were faced with a mission impossible. During the following months they were about the city taken care of things. It looks like a crusade because while they were at it they keep calling for Power, and more power from the heavens. "Give us power; give us power. Help us, help us" They keep on pleading and shouting.

Night and day unseizing round they clock they would shout, cry and voice out their shame, pledge, promises and prophecies. An outrageous lots, when they start talking and roving rebaldly about the city they look more comically displaced than anything I have ever seen. They start to preach on gospel to every ear that would listen to them; these gospel which becomes a funny song in my hears started like this; "Obey the Woman" "If you don't have a woman, you are not a man" "Respect woman" "Humble yourself to the woman". "You can not make it without a woman" "Slave for woman" and "No man can make money or have success without woman". Everything in part broken sentence like that until I was able to piece the whole together in meaningful concept.

It appears like they have started a movement akin to 'worship of woman' practices by few African countries. Some common phrases like "You are not a man if you can not talk to woman". And, "if you are not having sex and have had a child, you are not a man". "Woman only loves the person she is often having sex with and only knows those that have had sex with her intemately" "Sex is how we know or woman is how we know". These whole lot sounds more like gospel on the 'worth of women' more than the worship of woman.

Like a natural law, they start bonding it with purnishment for the offender and promising benefit of love, fortune and pleasure to these that obey them. The city is suddenly torn apart; because I happen to notice that while the love is good on the surface many other things were going on under the surface. During the period of '04,'05,'06,'07, there was a large crime reports within the city and its boroughs. That was not it all but a large part of it were against woman and most of it were murder. That sound bad, yes! realy bad, and I was at these time hearing these gospel of women going on like the feminism movement is not serving enough purpose. Okay, assuming they were starting a new movement like 'Neo-Feminism' which would explaine the cause.

Some years ago, I remember reading that some men expecially in Africa where it is still being practice while the rest of the world has move on into something different while allowing love to take its' toll. I was told or read that many man would strive all their years before they could afford to pay up their Dowry to their in-law and when it comes to the Alimony, you just don't talk about it. This I believe they refer to 'slavery for Woman' and were trying to abolish with a free and willing virtue as 'Humility to women' for the love.

But whom were these people? True to god, I hear men's voices mostly and few women. The language they were speaking was very ingenious of the Yoruba people of West Africa. I had to do more digging into spirituality and dreamworld and especially when I saw these same congregation during their communion. They were sharing meat, handing it one by one at the hand of a woman to people as they come close to her. These practice i have heard before was among a initiation process of the occult and since it looks like the same way the communion is held. My research takes me to reading Gerald Gadners' 'Book of Shadow'. The book was a work dedicated to three important people in the movement of the wicca and witch craft cult in england in the sixties. When talking about Aleister Crowley, he made mention of these same action of the spirit shoutuing in the darkest of night about the towns and disturbing the order of thing by their magical power. He made mention of a man called Odin whom he said most have come from the Yoruba people of Nigeria and whom is believe to be a haevy subject in the night spirit movements.

It seems like i found something which tally with what I was looking for; However, he made a comforting note on the conffession they use to do. He said that it all has been prohibited; I mean, that was comforting but it was not a guarantee just knowing. This dreamworld occult practices has been going on for as long as I know but in this post-modern civilised world it is realy a sorry case that this sort of thing is still going on. Every religion has been giving chance to establishe themselve within the community; so would somebody tells me why this secret cult is still hiding in the secrecy of the shadow world. Whom were they deciveing in trhe first place? It is pathetic and a seriously sick sorrowful case that some mind or mentality could stil be indulging in these secret religious act.

I am not sure if there is anyone out there that remember or notice anything or an event quiet unusual during the past years within the borders of Southampton. Between '04 to '07; you could have had an experience which you think is out of the ordinary, a thought, or something you have done or seen which you thing is not normal. I would like to know of it and especially if it is within Southampton. please write quoting this article.

I entred the city in the early feburary of 03' and since have been in the city. By the july of the same year I started to experience a great movement of spiritual bodies around the city. This was not unsual to me because I have been used to seeing spirits around either dead or living( Double bodies) spirits. However a large number of them gathered in one location was something I had not witnessed before.


While they rove around the city the make a heck of a noise that could blast away a ear drum. They were preaching, talking about somethings which concerning the reality while they still continues to call more and more spiritual bodiesto join them using a form of language 'If you were spirit'

All around the city the formed a wall on both sides of the road while load shouts and hails were emerging from few roving about. Soon I was able to grab the drift of their running around; while they do this they were at the same time calling every other spirit bodies around and with any human along with them. Sometimes I had thought they were removing them from people's bodies.

But what exactly was these congregation of spirit bodies about exacltly? I wondered and pondered. They speak to peoples' mind and demand to be recorgnised as god. Then, they demand obedience otherwise punishement. They were very strict with their commands and maniulation of the human's mind. Suddenly, they were ministring to peoples' mind through thought which sometimes is automatic and most often a sugestion.


They noises went on and on through night and day around the city and its boroughs. At nights they would have a vigorous vigil in confession. They demand power from the heavens and invoke it into their speech. Soon by the summer of 04' I started to notice a number of events withing the city population. The number of crime start to grow and the daily death toll increases with robbery. The year 04,05, 06,07; see the most high number of crime in the city especially death count. muder is commited almost every night.

Some messages ring home from their rebard roving about and noises. the preached certain gospel which sound like the gospel of woman nature. The woman's worth I tarmed it. They said that no man can succed, have money or live a good life without the woman. point taken. But actually you can not do any thing successfully without the woman input. But what woman input? Are we not living and walking this earth together? Then, they demand that every man should be obedient, humble and respectful to woman that this is the only way to get along with them. Points taken but was that not doen before? In exchange they demand that the women should be lenient with their favors serving every humble heart that come and look unto them with care and loving. It looks like they requested leave from man working hard to serve the women; this is slavery to woman they calls it. Women does not require money to marry or be in any relationship with. Instead it is humility before them and a show of respect for they were the ones whom brought us to life.


These people makes some good point which any woman who is a woman would back imediately and which only a strong head ego male would reject. The woman were asked to take their pleasure from every places they were in need and requested. In other word be favorable, serving, caring and enjoy themselves while at it. Obedient to woman is strictly required to win their favors; which is more like obedience without question, without doubting the say so because if you do doubt you would be count not worthy of the favor. It sound like worship of woman for real as the earth mother. Their crave for sexual pleasure was enormouse, wanton throwing caution to the wind for that pleasure. I do not want to say it, however recently, I learn that it might possibly be attached to or a clever way of exploiting and proliferating the sexual ritaul often practice by the occult.

Soon, i happen upon a good act which they were practising at a time. This is the act of shareing meat by handing a piece of meat to every new individual that is around. This practice as I get to learn is linked with the act of First Initiation. Must I say, largest of the population of these group were Women; And, the new initiate were largely women. This act of initiation causes me a lot of sleepless nights; And, i eventually had to pick up a book to look these things up.

I check Gerald Gadner's 'Book of Shadow' where he investigate and detailed a lot of Aleister Crowley's work in the movement of the wicca and witch coven around England. At some point in the book he explained some certain events which had happened in the past. The night movement and nioses of spirit bodies as they move around the city in the dark of nights and certain names like Odin. Then he explained that they use to hold confession groups in the spirit which was later prohibited. But who judge all these things, who monitor them, they were doing it again I suppose. These shadow cults- occult/secret cults practiced through dreams and dream world have been for ages however this is my first time of actually seeing it.

Most of the People involved and the language they speak were Yoruba from Nigeria west Africa country. Another surprising discovery was that this Odin man or spirit which was writen about was said to have either spring from the Yorubas or have a strong connection with them. They appear to have done a genuine job at propagating the 'worth of woman' or 'worship of woman' as the mother earth and source of life. At the same time they promised destruction, devastitation and even death to the men that does not have a woman, or does not honor the woman and tried success with disregard to assistance from the woman. I mean, we are leaving in this earth together, spring from the same hole between the legs, carries the capacity for the same desire until something goes wrong along the way of fulfilment of these desires which makes some to chose otherwise. I am trying to understand why the compulsive nature of the woamn gospel; the need for their relegion of force or control; Tyranic relegious order

This ribald roving about and noises about the city has decline by the coming in of this year. Not entirely, but to a great decline. They could still be seen walking, falling deep down into the abase or popping out of the walls and racing about. The decline in the noise and numbers moving about brought about few changes in the town. For example; the crime rate this year reduced greatly in comparison to the previous years. While the death rate, daily death toll has decline with other crimes.

I am compilling a case file on events which had taken place within the past years. Any sort of sexual, work, friendship and criminal events which you might think was quite out of the ordinary or the usual. It could be you or somebody close to you, but it has to be within southampton or his close neighbouring towns.

NEGATIVE ETHICS

A famous American writer Robert Benchley, whom wrote six hundred essays in his life time in the nineteen century once said; ‘there are two kinds of people in the world, those who believe there are two kinds of people in the world and those who don’t’. I am not sure which kind you would be after you have read this.

There is a universal believe that the whole of the earth is forever engaged in conflict. Though an aging concept. Which has been around as far back as the Pre-Socratic Philosopher period. That is approximately ca.500 BC. The conflict called ‘Conflict of Opposites’ is what I believe keeps the whole entity of the earth in motion. In a state of flux they call it. A type of motion I believe present in everything which exist and could be define as a whole. It is probably the beginning of the beginning. Motion is necessary small or gigantic, slow or fast, which of course depend on the degree of force put into it. From the Greek mythology, to the scientific theory, the concept of Chaos, seems to be present in every thing. The ‘The Big Bang’ theory, The collision of matters and Antimatter And the subsequent fusion and fission. Its’ all things that goes Bang! And Blam!.
This is probably the basic theory of the formation of the earth. Emerging out of the fusion and fission of these two motion-forces into a whole. Thus, the earth and everything in it come to posses this same conflict of two opposite within it in every bit of it whole self. From the minute atom to the largest of the body; be it human or animals. There are few that need to be confronted about these ‘theory of opposites’, such as;

How did these forces come into existence?
How is it that there were only two of these forces? And,
How is it that they were attracted to the same point or toward each other?
I can not possibly answer these questions right now, but all I know, though it sound like a nice tale, this theories is based on one single fact that ‘All things exist in Opposite’. Some still think it is not so much a remarkable concept this concept of ‘conflict of opposites’ but I think it is still the greatest discovery ever made by Heraclitus a pre-Socratic Philosopher; next to it is ‘Gravity’ by Newton. Dualism concepts; The existence of two; is at the root of every philosophy and science; every thought, mind, concept and substances. Basically saying that it is the true perception of all existence. We see it everywhere around us, in every thing we do though we do not notice it. Even the bit of force we applied to a pen.
All things has its’ opposites, distinct and functioning apart from itself as a whole in itself. For example; The common language of Right and Wrong, the dualistic co-existence of Male and Female, radical attractions of Positive and Negative and the religion ditheism of evil and good. All these point to one same theory and concept. When this is true, then, the two opposites exist by each other. And, when there is only a balance which keeps both in equal proportion is there ever peace-‘the fairest harmony’. I conceive that both forces are either radical or one is and the other consuming. My rough guess is that both of these forces has to exist, has to have a presence to guarantee that there is a continuation, motion, action, reaction, attraction, creation call it whatever. They had to make a presences to see that things in the earth would continue and not go out of extinction. Call it the freak of nature but something has been taking care of itself. I sort of see it like the marriage of male and female, a sort of mutual beneficiary existence. Because as it is in the mind of the whole same is it in the mind of its minute parts. It is right Matter could not be divided.

Could you Imagine how a day without night would look like, or a world full of woman without a man, you having a left hand without a right, or two right hands, without the left hand, full night without a daylight. It does seem like a possible confusion of symmetric order. Also in this same symmetric order fashion, the human mind has gained within it a two opposite energy and forces- when it is let loose, within all its' members. We conceive things in our mind in two ways opposites and two ways congenial and at some point along we will be able to move to one side and stay on it. This may be as a form of a conscious and or unconscious choice. Our choices of the two said to be a conscious choice not only because we know when we make the choice but it is because it is a choice that correspond to our mind state and mental force. That is to say that every state of mind is correspondence to an existing force.

‘I am solely moved to the right, than, I am solely moved to the left’. These were the choices we made voluntarily and involuntarily. While we might even be totally naïve of what exactly it means. I would like to believe that the animals of the wild were in this same symmetric system.
It is so naïve of us to believe that the juggernaut panoply of human ethics could be so much differently conceive and yet it is at the same time, based on this one principle of duality-or Moral duality. There is only one way of doing something and that is the right way. But we do not all know this; Which means, we assume the concept that there is no wrong way of doing a thing or anything right. And, yet we all purposed to be right. The entire concept of the ethic, in its different forms and ways is about this one thing; the right way to do a anything right. Saying this thus, we arrive at the knowledge of a ‘common goal’.

Could it be possible that we all are actually aiming at a common goal? A common goal such as in; Freedom, survival. If this is true; does this means that we will ever be at conflict to achieve this common goal? Every rudimentary parlance knows it as; 'the survival of the fittest'; the best to win, a win or a loose. Because one side of us knows how to do it better than the other side. And, one man is good at a thing than the other next man; some do not understnd this concept and still exist in conflict with himself and the world around. And, through conflict on which is the right way and who is right, we were abl;e to set the motion of every civilisation. Do we then keep the conflict going? Or generate a balance to keep things in harmony-‘the fairest harmony’. The purpose of every principle of ethics is to find the right way to do the right thing-The right way to survive.

If there is a way to know how these two forces were generated and set into motion I think we could observe ourselves. Individually, we posses this dual mental complex. Initially, We weight everything in our mind in two different ways; unrelated or Apparent opposites and related or correlating opposite. We understand ourselves right? And yet, this is been the root to many problems in personal life and relationship –ourselves which we can not figure out. As a form of habit of the whole we have acquired in our possession both Negative and Positive forces present in the body. The ‘Negative and Positive’ is merely a terminology ‘of the presence’ of the two forces which were radically at conflict for dominance. And we do not even understand which of these force (Energy) is emitted out of our body. Logically or illogically; we do take actions based on a notion of force which start the instance a motion-action begins. It is in the law of motion; I have Newton to thank for that great discovery- That is the third great discovery. Which is to say; we are either positively motivated or negatively motivated. And, possibly both forces might be in agreement and moves together in a mutually correlated way because of the common goal. Which can be interpreted as the force of attraction. We invented relationship because of these common goal or attraction to become a bonding force or bonding chaos.

Ethic is the combine work of the mind, action and aim. I suppose It become known as an ethics when there is a people with the same one idea in mind, one mode of action and one aim in mind. Ethics is developed from an individual moral concept. And the moral is developed from an idea in an individual mind. Thus,this mind in perspective form an ideal person or people, group or society. And all these ideal were formed from reasons and meaning associated to all things and these as in; experience of oneself, experience of another person, and how we experience the world in a whole. These were example of things developing from minute idea until it grows to become a whole from a minute whole.

I may not be able to fully construct what a negative ethic really is like if I did not take a peep into an individual mind. An individual mind, is probably the mind of the dominant force inherently present and in motion at one space and time. The mind of an individual person would mirror out the mind of the force in action at a space and time. From the minute matter a person is formed in the logic of the force at work. Forces don’t have a mind, like me and you, one of their own, its’ a trajectory momentum. These are one of the little things we do not notice easily. Each one person is the embodiment of a force, the mind might just be the most life giving active part of the forces. And, because of the concept of duality these forces is accepted to sometimes posses a mutual relation by means of their attraction.

A negative ethic, could be refer to as the distinct character of two unlike minded people. It also could be termed as the mind of the negative force in presence at a time in space. An unrestricted, unmeasured, untamed and oppressive attitude. It could be a strongly opposing attitude of a group of people; that is; A pressure group. It could also be the dominant attitude of a person; That is, a person whom neglected the common concept or a majority voice, idea action and anything. And, it might just be a group of people whom often takes a different action and view, divergent to the generally accepted way. And, a person whom let his other dislike opposite side dominate. While all of these touch on what a negative ethics is, in their own little way, it still did not fully define what a negative ethic is. Every person exhibit a small amount of opposing attitude at sometime, without which there could be no improvement. Nothing is a necessity if there is no disagreement to the way things were. Like saying that, you do not need anything if you did not disagree with what you have got at the moment. We could understand more about the negative morals or ethics if we look into some of its simple type origins. I have been able to specify four type origins:

Devastative mind: A great master in the act of war; from the Roman Empire Niccolo Machiavelli has ones said that a man need to devastate to rule. This basically describes the goal of a person possessing this sort of mind will always seek to lead. Where all the aim geared to rule the corresponding action will be to first devastate. Devastative concept or devastative notion would be so strongly inclusive in everything. This sometimes grows to an extreme length like a woman’s spurn or like the woe’ of a witchcraft. These were typical of people whom demonstrate self destructive attitude. Whom would knowingly first devastate themselves before they set forth on their subject-objective. The reason being to avert from any reason not to accomplish that which it has set out to do.

Under-develop mind: At times there is many sorrow in great amount of wisdom. When this type of mind should in fact be called Hyper-knowledgeable it is in concept called an under-develop mind. It could be a genius mind whom could not yet handle the bundle of information dumped into the mind. This is a fault in the transformation process of the mind which it is yet undergoing. The building up of the mind would make the person take some erratic, mindless, oppressive, loutish, single manned deterministic action. Until the whole transformation process of the mind is complete there will be no organisation and a properly defined characterisation. It could be the mind of a young child going through this process of transformation. It would exercise great amount of rash, offensive and dominery attitude. It is generally punitive to a wrong done. A very erratic mind and mostly swayed to both extremes of morals attitude in its judgement. Where ever this sort of mind is in presence god help those that were around.

Un-develop: This might possibly the most advancely schematic and deceptive minds of the negative minds. Initially, this kind of mind is that which does not know. It would not want to know. Uneducated and unlearned mind with hyper-consciouseness of itself. It would intend to remain natural to its’ original self and if it would take to unlearn everything it has learn to do it. It is mostly presently notice in younger people but commonly in use by adult. The mind is dangerous when un-nerved and might be very punitive. It is mostly frustrated to the degree of

self – destruction when oppressed. It would retaliate in every way even if you should succeed in getting it to do what it would not necessarily do. Somebody has to pay for its’ doing what it do not want to do. They were easily detected when they display reluctance through their procrastinations.

Self –rejection: this mind is both dangerous and beneficial. It could lead to dissatisfaction which would bring improvement. But when undone it could become a paralyse of other active members of the mind. Self rejection is mostly influenced by external impulses. For I know that a person is whole and complete in its own original form. In their own way, they were what they were perfect and distinct. Until that time they confront what confound that distinction and perfection.
It is most probably true that if a person is not dissatisfy with the way something is at the moment that thing is not likely to get changed. There has to be a form of conflict inherent which is likely to lead to improvement. We posses a conflicting nature inside us and that is one of the reason we are human. A conflicting nature in the forms of; disagreement and Agreement, choices, Emotion, like and dislike that we often exercise. And, I think this is the reason why we change to become the most developed spices of being on earth more from the animals. And, maybe the best in the universe. I would like to add that some animals too might exhibit a conflicting attitude. These conflicts or disagreement is one form of negative attitude by the way. Every mind is distinct, not a fraction of the whole but in the nature of the whole.

Our nature is generally at conflict with itself. The body is at conflict with what goes on within it, the mind is at conflict with what comes through it or develop except if there is nothing going on inside the mind. So everything is ever at conflict. Harmony is only come when and if there is an equal balance of the two opposite. Equal balance of hot and cold. Balance between hunger and eating. In short there is no amount of a thing we can do without the balance of the two opposites.
From the mind we would generate a thought-force which conveyed the whole purpose of action and motion right down to the aim. Generally, negative morals or ethics were energetic, active and enthusiastic, rude, rowdy, unapologetic and when they move with this negative mind they became a formidable force. It is actually possible to know what percentage of this force actually achieve its purpose. It is like a body dropping from gravity. They exhaust great amount of power in all their actions and motions. Which is often the reason that when they fail they fall and has no use only to be destroy.

The process of revival is long if they were administered with treatment. And because they make use of a lot of energy, power or force, they can afford to proliferate rapidly more easily. We should not forget that ‘Negative mind’ is one half of the two opposites dualistic nature. It is the one half of the opposite which would not lay low. It grows faster and would not seize to wrestle for its own half otherwise it becomes pernicious. And when driven from one place they will fight to emerge at another place. We can hold the believe together now that “All things exist in opposites and by its opposites”. But this is one mind that needs its own existence and sought it out. Saying this thus; Is this the very wrong minds to be right? A wrong side of two opposite to be right and right to be wrong. Is these the minds which is wrong to do the right thing and wrong to do any thing the right way. Knowing it is a concept of the existence of two opposite, we assume that one will ever be right and the other ever wrong.

The Stud - A profile of female fertility scheme.

Plato in the Republic discuss something very critical as Darwin in the natural selection. Socrates was talking and he advocate the use of few selected men as a arranged fertility programme for the purpose of securing a decent offspring in a community.

I know the idea would not be publicly acceptable. People revoke such a thing that placed them in the same position as a gunieue pig. And expecially ideas that take away their own personal human right. Yes, the idea is generally against free human right. All right to reproduction is expected to be screened and passed through a selection process. So Darwin natural selection would have simultaneously work but under supervision and control.

These is the idea which unknowingly has been diligently being applied by woman. Certain women with good judgement concept has devote their right to reproduction to such natural selection process.

Woman has been known to be a dumping ground for ideas and dirty logic that the world would not easily agree with; woman would listen to it. It is not the insanity of the idea or logic but the buzz of trying something new, strange, the scheme of the idea and seeing what it could produce. Excuse me using the phrase ‘dumping ground’ what I actually would call them is a pasture ground. It correspond with their nature as well; we see men pour in his spam and go away expecting it to grow and produce a child. They would nurture it, and help it to grow or help it to die. If the seed is a sick dying seed.

Recently however, I have been aware of the strategic ways with how women choses men to be a fertility stud to father them a child. Honestly, it is no joke, the only thing the men has to do is live with them and keep pouring his spam to father a child. They do not have to be a father to the child but the society still however request the attention and presence of the father for the psychological welfare of the growing child. Any mode of curricular activity; like any work might have impact on the male mind, growth and strength which the female might not be able to penetrate or fully gain control as a result they were not logically permited to do any work. It bothers them and becomes fraustrating, unreasonable, problematic should their stud start to work.

The stud, as I call them with the famous name in use for the past thirty years. They would be cared for by the woman on regular basis. Housed and feed, clothed and groomed, some might not even have to do any house work, however woman resist certain high mindedness from their stud. Such high mindedness which might result in stronger or higher spam count which their own gene would not be able to subdued. So the stud is constantly under monitoring finger; just at the finger tip.

I learn that these studs would have been placed under the control of the woman without them knowing it. Their brains/mind and thinking faculty is completely taking under charge. They think, dream, talk, live and move by themselves but greatly under the influence and control of the female mentality. This is a strategic programming which would guarantee that the spam count would contain most of the female gene than the man. They knows that the mind and the mentality within it at any time is more important.

I would love it if science would prove that female spam has the ability to control and determine the sex of a child and not by a dominant spam count. Because this would them prove that they knows what they were doing.

May these stud out there continue to enjoy the pleasures of their Paradise .…….. Peace.